Sick Girl

So last week I went away for a week of training and when I got home, Ken said, Jen I'm so sick.  You might not stay in here with me tonight unless you want to get it.  That's all he had to say.  I'm not interested in getting sick at all so I snuggled on the comfy couch downstairs and quickly fell asleep.

Days went by and sometime during the day on Monday my throat started to get scratchy.  I called Ken and asked him what his symptoms were.  Sure enough, scratchy throat was 1st on his list.  GREAT!  I had hope but it was quickly dashed as the day went on.  I could feel my body starting to go in to an exhaustion mode.  Very lethargic.

Fast forward to the morning and I was wiped out completely.  I took Cody to school and it took every ounce right out of me.  Then things got weird.  I drove Cody up to the drop off zone and watched him walk in to the school.  Once I saw him disappear into the doorway a tear ran down my cheek.  He's so grown up now.  Almost done with Kindergarten and on his was to 1st grade.  He just looked so old to me.  Then I thought, oh geez, I would have never had seen this if I didn't survive.  How did that pop in my head?  Why does cancer always randomly pop in my head.  As I was driving, I had deja vu where I remember when I was going through chemo that there were times when I couldn't remember driving to work.  I remember going through the motion but often wondered how I got there.  It was the weirdest feeling.  And now as I'm driving I'm thinking about it.  Once I got home, I feel into the bed and completely zoned out.  It felt so weird.  Like chemo all over again.  I use to sleep the days away to avoid the sickening feeling that I use to get and although I had some nasty bug in my system, it was so odd that it kept making me feel like how I felt 2 1/2 years ago.  I don't like how I was feeling and I could feel myself getting into a funk.  But it didn't take long till I drifted off to sleep.

5 hours later I was awoken by Ken's phone call.  Did I actually sleep that long?  WOW!  Of course the rest of the day I spent in bed just resting.  I wanted to go back asleep but couldn't seem to get back to it. 

I grabbed Cody from class and it was an early night for us all.  Unfortunately, my cold is still with me.  It's going to be a long night.