Virginia's Baby Shower

Today Ken, Cody and I drove down to my cousin's house to attend Virginia's baby shower.  I was so excited to see her.  This is her 3rd child and it's going to be a little girl.  So I got to buy little girl stuff which was so much fun!!!  I also got to see my cousins, my 2 aunts and uncle.  It's not often that I get to see my relatives since we live so far apart.  Normally it wouldn't be a big deal but in Northern Virginia, you can never predict the traffic and no matter what day of the week it is, you will always get stuck in traffic.   So whenever there's a family function, I try to make it and what better function than a baby shower to get us all together.

The best part about hanging out with family is we socialize for a while before the festivities begin.  I spent a good amount of time with my cousin Kathy and her daughter Katie.  I really enjoyed talking to them.  We talked a lot about my cancer journey and how I was now currently feeling.  It's amazing to actually be sitting there reminiscing on the past.  Last year this time I was just days away from my 1st chemo treatment.  So scared.  But today I was able to talk about my experience and actually feel good about it.  I felt strong and in control.  Everyone thought I looked good to but I'm still not digging my short hair.  It's just so out of control so I curled it to try to give it some sort of style.  I'm trying so hard to look like a girl again. 

Cousins (Kelly, Christine, Kathy, Me, Virginia, & Greg)

Awl...cute little outfit.

 Love the color pink!

 Look at the adorable hooded towel

 The happy couple (Me and Ken)

I had a great time and I can't wait to meet baby Lillian. 

One year ago today....

One year ago today I found my lump.

I sat at work today not sure of how I felt about it.  Was it all a dream?  Did this really happen to me?  Yes, it did.  But the weird thing is, I can't really remember it all.  I'm so glad I blogged it.  I really didn't capture it all.  There were days when I just had no energy to write.  Those are the days I wish I had Ken video tape me, just to hear what I had to say.  It's all a blur.  But then when I think about it, I'm glad I didn't video tape it because I'm not sure if I could watch it.  Looking back at photos, watching the transformation.  It's shocking.  In fact, I'm still not sure if I can post the changes all on one post.  There are times when I want the memory and other times I don't want to remember it at all.

Last year this time I had no idea of what was on the horizon.  I knew it was bad because I knew this lump was real. In a matter of 2 weeks, I would find out the reality of my future. 

I swear I'm going to have a mullet soon

There are days when I look in the mirror and say, geez for hair growning in, it looks pretty good.  And there are those days that I look in the mirror and say geez I swear I'm going to have a mullet soon.  :)  My hair is growing like a weed.....in the back.  But what's up with the top of my head.  Why is it still so short?  Why am I not getting any bangs?  Why am I looking like a  woman in the making but who's gone really wrong?
CRAZY!  Well, if I got up the nerve to get a cut and style I'm sure I wouldn't be saying this but since I don't have the nerve to do it yet, I'll just sit here and wait till that mullet shows up.