CANCER FREE!!!

Total heart failure!!!   Today my heart has been racing like mad.  This is my 1st mammogram appointment since I was diagnosed last year with breast cancer.  I actually started freaking out last night but Ken (calm and cool Ken) said, you shouldn't stress out Jen.  The doctors all said you were cancer free.  Ok, that was several months ago and even though the doctors said I was cancer free, to me, the actual tests will show the real deal.

So I went to work and it seemed like the day just dragged by.  I was seriously watching the clock.  My sister, Wendy told me she'd go with me.  Initially when I made the appointment I didn't think about asking her or Ken to go with me.  The appointment was months away and I was trying not to think about it.  But the other day Wendy mentioned going with me and I quickly took her up on her offer.

She met me at my office and we went to lunch.  It was so nice just chit chatting with her.  Since my mammo appointment is on my side of town, she followed me over to the doctor so she could leave from there.  Walking in to the office, my heart starting racing.  Fear just overtook my body.  I just couldn't believe how nervous I was.  Just like I have a fear of the dentist, I now fear mammos and just like the dentist they called me in as soon as I walked through the door.  (Amazing since I've waited at so many other doctor offices for hours on end)  Anyway,  I walked back and changed.  As soon as I sat down again, they called me back.  Wendy waiting in the waiting room and I went on alone.  They took 5 images total 3 on the left and 2 on the right.  She told me to go back to the waiting room and she would let me know the results immediately.  Apparently once you're diagnosed with breast cancer, they review your films immediately instead of waiting.  She came back about 5 minutes later and called me and Wendy into a small room.  My heart was leaping out of my chest.  I looked up at her, since I sat down due to wobbly legs and she said your mammo is normal and there is no evidence of cancer.  SO I'M CANCER FREE???  YES.  I couldn't believe what I heard.  It just didn't seem real.  There's no way??  Can I be dreaming?  But I'm not.  I'm so happy right now.

As Wendy and I walked out of the doctors office, we both were exhausted.  She was so worried for me and now we're both happy but both worn out.  I had a 15 min ride home and she a 45 min ride.  Both of us need to chill for the rest of the evening but I'm happy to report that......

I'M CANCER FREE !!!