One year ago today....

One year ago today I found my lump.

I sat at work today not sure of how I felt about it.  Was it all a dream?  Did this really happen to me?  Yes, it did.  But the weird thing is, I can't really remember it all.  I'm so glad I blogged it.  I really didn't capture it all.  There were days when I just had no energy to write.  Those are the days I wish I had Ken video tape me, just to hear what I had to say.  It's all a blur.  But then when I think about it, I'm glad I didn't video tape it because I'm not sure if I could watch it.  Looking back at photos, watching the transformation.  It's shocking.  In fact, I'm still not sure if I can post the changes all on one post.  There are times when I want the memory and other times I don't want to remember it at all.

Last year this time I had no idea of what was on the horizon.  I knew it was bad because I knew this lump was real. In a matter of 2 weeks, I would find out the reality of my future.