Reminiscing

Funny how things bring you back to the past with a blink of an eye.  I have an old shoe box filled with old photos.  I always intended to put them in a photo album but for some reason, they just stayed in that old box.  That box was in my closet for the longest time.  A few weeks ago, I cleaned out the closet and moved my box to the dresser.  Never even looked at the box or the photos.

Today I was chatting on the phone while sitting in my yellow room.  After getting off, I glanced over at the old box.  I pulled a few photos out and it was like I traveled back in time, wondering how in the world did I get here, present day 2013.  I saw photos of me in the 90's, white water rafting, mountain biking, Halloween, Christmas, old friends, Vegas, LA, weddings and races.  I looked so young and I remember all those fun times and outfits.  Some (mom shorts) I'd like to forget and some that were so darn cute.  I was skinny and wow, a flat stomach too?  And all those different hairstyles.  Amazing! I had a great life, I still do but there's something about being young that makes me wish I appreciated it a little more.

Fast forward a few hours later and I'm spending a wonderful day with Ken and Cody.  All the sudden, I'm exhausted.  I have no energy. I took Cody up to bed.  He crashed and I'm getting ready to when I turned on TV.  Nothing is on.  So I scroll through all the channels on Verizon when I came across Beverly Hills 90210 circa 1992.

FLASHBACK!!!

I remember watching this with my girlfriends.  We were addicted.  So 1992 puts me at 21 years old.  Wow, so carefree.  I could have never imagined in a million years what was in store for me.  I remember being in my 20's thinking 30 was ancient and gross.  40 was way off into the future.  No need to think about that.  Fast forward to 2013, here I am 42 and reminiscing in the past.

Where did the time go?  So I'm watching 90210 and somewhere during the show Kelly and Steve (2 characters) were chatting.  Kelly said, "Like they said, life takes weird turns."  I looked at the tv and thought, isn't that the truth.  So it made me think.  Looking at those photos earlier today, the breast cancer survivor Jen is looking at the young, healthy, not a care in the world Jen and the breast cancer survivor Jen seems to be a tad envious of the carefree Jen.  No worries, no restrictions, no real responsibilities and no scary cancer that haunts me daily.  I'm always wondering if it's waiting for the right time to strike again. 

But I look at Cody, sleeping away in his bed and I can't help to feel how lucky I am to have him.  How supportive he is and how he loves me so.  Although I can't help to reminisce, to think back to the past that's seemed so perfect, I am truly blessed to have him and to be alive.