Mammo time

Oh the stress of getting a mammogram.  It's such an emotional time.  I feel no lumps and pray there will be none detected. It's an emotional roller coaster.  My appointment was at 1:30.  I left work at noon and met up with my sister Wendy.  We grabbed lunch nearby and the next thing you know  it was time to go to my appointment.  

I've noticed with most dr. appointments it takes forever to get in.  The primary care, the dermatologist, the peditrician, the allergist, but the darn dentist, radiologist and when I got chemo and radiation were all on time.  So I sign in, and the next thing you know, they are calling me back.  I'm nervous and they are on time so I'll either get good news or bad today.  50/50 shot.  I'll roll the die and here I go.

Mammo, lobby, wait.   Wait, wait, wait.
It felt like forever.
Then she called me back for 2 additional scans.  What???  My heart just dropped.
Mammo, lobby, wait.  Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.   Something is wrong.  I must have the dear in headlights look on my face.  I'm freaking out.  Wait, wait, wait.  This is way longer than last year.  Even Wendy is getting nervous.  We are hoping for the best but I can't help that my mind is wondering.  From oh please no to man I'm really going to be pissed to oh, please no.

She called us back and said, "GOOD NEWS"  No signs of cancer.  WOMAN!!!!  You scared the crap out of me. 

We walked out feeling good but both of us were exhausted.  I'm going home and going straight to bed.  My chest hurts, my heart is finally slowing down, and my legs are wobbling.

BUT THANK GOD!!!!   I'm still cancer free.  Well, breast cancer.  I still worry about all the other cancers out there.  But for now, I'm still cancer free.  And I'm thrilled.