Ever wonder

Ever wonder why people are the way they are?  Why they say certain things?  Or do certain things?  Do they intentionally mean it?  Or do they seriously have no clue?  We live in a world that's constant, Go, go go.  Does anyone ever slow down and smell the roses?  Does anyone ever sit down and truly think of others.  Does anyone ever communicate anymore?

I had cancer last year and it hit me in the face like a brick.  It made me realize that life is precious.  But what's funny is even though I was sick, I had a child. There was no VIP treatment, no major downtime.  I had to be well. I had to be strong.  But I'm tired of being the strong one.  The one who always has a smile on my face.  The one who tries so hard to be there for people and in return I get nothing.  The only thing I ask for is respect.  And that doesn't happen? No.  Work is crazy and home is too.  I'm tired of people who are fake, who expect everything to be handed to them on a silver platter and I'm just plain tired of it all.  I don't want this to ruin my holidays but I feel like it already has.  I don't have any interest at the moment to work on my Christmas cards or go Christmas shopping.  Does anyone really appreciate what I do?  Last year I was sick as a dog.  We went to PA for Thanksgiving 2 days after my last chemo treatment.  I was cold, bald, tired, and was mentally preparing for surgery in 3 weeks.  I ordered christmas cards, decorated our tree, and made cookies.  People who weren't even sick wondered how I did all that.  I was motivated to not let CANCER take away my fun.  But this year is different.  I feel awesome.  Sure I'm tired but I'm alive and happy.  But yet, the attitudes of certain people just really ruined my fun and I lost all interest in making an effort right now.  It's sad.  I know I shouldn't allow others to ruin my day, week, month or year but I don't know.  They did.