Monday, November 12, 2012

Scared

Over the last few months my side effects have been fading away which is great since I wasn't fond of any of them.  But today, actually recently, I've noticed my face is having issues.  When I was on chemo, I couldn't use face moisturizer because it burned my face.  So I haven't used it in a very long time in fear of my face reacting to it again.  Of course I'm watching the lines and wrinkles take over but I guess that's the way the ball bounces when you get older.  Anyway, I started using my face cream again but it got taken away by TSA on my way back from Phoenix.  So I've been creamless well, I use body lotion here and there to relieve the tightness.  I assume that might be part of my problem but my left under eye is starting to get poofy.  It looks as though I'm getting a dry patch on my right cheek.  It looks a little red.  So now, I'm starting to worry a bit.  I had my eyes checked out about a month or 2 ago.  The doc said my eyes were great.  So why is my eyelids getting poofy and my eyes are getting a bit gookie?  My brain is automatically saying eye cancer but the other side of my brain is saying focus Jen focus!  It's probably a reaction to something.  So I might have to swing by my doctor to get it checked out.  I just don't understand how I can be on the uphill climb only to feel like this is a set back.  So frustrating and of course I'm a little scared.

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