I have this little bruise like thing under my right shoulder blade. It's been there 3 weeks or more now. I keep forgetting about it because it's on my back and my hair tends to cover it up. Today I was getting ready for work and Ken said, did you know that your bruise is still there? I grabbed the mirror and took a look. Sure enough it was still there. Ughh..
So I decided that I really need to get to a doctor so I could find out if I need to be worried about this or not. For a minute I googled bruises that don't go away and then I chickened out. I really don't want to see something that I really can't handle. Initially, I wasn't sure who to call but decided to call the Oncologist over my Primary Care Physician since I've seen her way more than the PCP.
I got a hold of a guy and I told him that I have this bruise or what looks like a bruise on my back right under my right shoulder blade. Since Dr. Wilkinson broke up with me last year I wasn't sure if she'd want to see me or if I should just go to my PCP. I also told him that it looks like a bruise but I've been under a ton of stress lately and I've help move 2 people in the last month so I could have easily pulled something. Then of course I mentioned having a little dry cough. Of course adding that it's pollen season and maybe it's just from the pollen and now that I'm talking about it, the area seems a bit more irritated at the moment which could all be made up in my head. After a breath, he said he'd call me back.
I got a call back shortly and it was Claudia. Anyway, she said that she talked to the gentleman who took my call and she said I heard you were under the impression that you and Dr. Wilkinson broke up last year? I said yes and she said, no.....you are still a patient. You just graduated from seeing her every 6 months. You are now on the yearly schedule. WHAT???? When I spoke to Dr. Wilkinson last June I never once heard her say see ya in a year. I heard, you're doing great. I no longer need to see you. Which I was shocked at and I'm sure had the look of horror on my face. I couldn't believe that she was breaking up with me. After 5 years together. How do you go from seeing me 2 times a year to 100% goodbye. I was so uneasy about it, actually quite heartbroken and felt abandoned. But now almost a year later, I'm told that I need to make my followup appointment which I did for the end of June. So I guess we didn't break up after all?
She then said we'll call you back before 4pm. Ughh. Mixed emotions!!!
So now I feel super weird and a bit nervous. For the last 10 months, I thought my only doctor when it came to breast cancer was my OBGYN. Now I have this appointment in 6 weeks with my Oncologist and I'm freaking out. The stress is too much. I had to get out of the office.
90 degrees it read in my car which helped with my mixed emotions. I was having and tiny tears that fell on my cheeks. I was really hoping to not break down in the office. The fear of cancer coming back haunts me.
I got a call back around 2pm and my new appointment is now May 26th for my checkup and to look at the bruise. Oh yeah!!! Just in time to celebrate Memorial Day weekend or not. Let's hope that it's a good visit and this bruise is just stress related. Fingers crossed.
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