Bone Scan

My nerves are sky high today.  My appointment was at 8:30am.  Luckily Cody is with his grandma is PA so Ken and I got up early and headed out toward my appointment.  Shocked that traffic was so good, we got there early.  I signed in and it didn't long for them to call me back.  I had Ken come back with me.  I always need support when I go to any kind of these appointments.  These are the same locations I went to 4 years ago when all of this drama started.  It brings back horrific memories.  The nurse saw that I was nervous and she did a great job of entertaining me.  Super friendly and lots of jokes.  Kuddos to her!

She took some blood and of course I wasn't looking but Ken said she mixed it with something and injected me with it.  She told us to come back at 11:30 for the test.  What to do in 3 hours.

Luckily we had to run some errands.  So off to Alexandria we went.  We got breakfast, stopped by Ken's Dr's office to get an order from the doc and ran over to the townhouse to check on a few things with the tenant.  Time just flew by.  Before I knew it we were heading back to the doctor's office for my test but we got a ton of stuff done and felt really accomplished.

When we got to the office, I signed in and they called me back immediately.  She took Ken and I back to a room and gave me the run down on my test.  This year I'm only getting a bone scan done which is actually the easier test of the two.  Last year I had a CAT scan too and they had to inject some contrast in me which made my leg tingly for several months afterward.  I laid down on the table and she put a warm blanket over me.  The machine came down and was really close to my face but I just closed my eyes and didn't think twice about it.  The machine that is.  I thought constantly about what the machine would find and how I was going to accept my fate.

Tears rolled out the corner of my eyes and landed in my ears.  Then all I could think about was the pooling of water in my ears and how much it was starting to annoy me.   Then my nose started itching and I couldn't itch it cause my arms were tied with a rubber band plus the machine was so close to my face I couldn't itch it if I wanted too.  Then my brain went wild and I thought if the cancer does come back, where is it and how bad did it spread.  Then I thought about Virginia and how her cancer spread.  Then I thought will it be caught in time and will the doctors be able to save me.  My thoughts just spiraled out of control from there and more tears flowed.

I would say overall the entire test, coming in and leaving was 30 min.  I was exhausted and hungry.
I just wear myself out so much when it comes to these appointments.  I have my mammo in a few months and although I'm so tired of these tests, it's better to be safe than sorry.  I want to live a very long and cancer free life.