All last night it seemed like every time I turned over in bed, my head would start spinning. It makes no sense, why am I so dizzy? When I woke up this morning, the concern stayed with me. Am I just pushing myself to hard? I don't think so. I have a life like everyone else. Cooking, cleaning, working and being a mom. So why the dizziness? Am I dehydrated or is something going on in my body that I'm just not paying enough attention to?
Oh there she is, hello Mrs. Worry. What are you worried about today? As usual, cancer is always on my mind. Scary thoughts and what if's always roam my brain. I wish I could turn it off but I can't. So I continued on with my day. Went shopping with Ken and Cody. We even met my sister for lunch. Food wasn't so great but it was fun meeting up with her.
We get home and both Ken and I are tired. He didn't sleep well last night either. I'm seeing a trend with us. It seems like we usually get a little "off" together. Which isn't good cause he ends up resting and I end up still being a mom. Cody was in the basement putting together a lego set that he got for his birthday and I had to help him out a bit here and there. I noticed my dizziness was coming back while walking between the couch and the toy room. So here comes Mrs. Worry again. I had to tell Ken about it, telling him that it's odd that I've been dizzy here and there throughout the day today. The next thing I know Cody walks in the room with a little cup of water in his hand. He walks over to me and says: "here mommy, drink some water. It will make you feel better." I know the look of shock fell over my face. I didn't even ask him for water. In fact my grown husband (who again was lying on the couch not feeling well, so I don't hold it against him) didn't even offer me anything. But my 6 year old actually got up from putting his legos together to get me a cup of water. I was completely stunned but so humbled. I took a few sips and graciously thanked him. He proceeded to get me another cup of water and by then Ken sat up amazed. Even Ken thanked Cody for being such a wonderful son and for getting mommy some water.
Ken and I have been teaching Cody to be respectful to others, to be kind and caring. But during my cancer treatments when he was 3 1/2, I saw how wonderful and compassionate he was and I knew I was extremely blessed to have him because he was my rock during those days but now I know 200% that my son is truly a blessing from God. I was meant to meet Ken and I was meant to have my little Cody in my life.
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