Emotional Roller Coaster

Today was an emotional day.  I was in such a good mood this morning.  It was bring your bike to work day at Cody's preschool.  He was so excited to bring his new bike to school and ride it.  Everyone in his class brought their bikes and parked them all in a designated area in the parking lot.  I was so happy to see him so excited.  I was energized myself.  Thinking, I'm going to get a lot done today.  It's chilly out so I have no outdoor distractions.  I can spend the entire day in the house organizing.  So I got home and put my plan in to effect and the kitchen was my first stop.  I started organizing the cabinets over the desk.  We got some new plastic outdoor plates and cups so that's where I wanted to put them.  The air conditioning guy showed up to inspect our air conditioning units.  Even though it's chilly out today, I know warm weather is on the way and soon here to stay.  Anyway, as time went by I started getting tired.  That's when my frustration began.  I hate being a slave to side effects.  I can have the best intentions and the fatigue sets in and ruins everything.  That's where the emotions start rolling in.  I just want to be normal.  I'm tired of my body telling me what to do.  I know the docs said to listen to my body but I have been for the last 9 months.  I just want a few days of freedom.  To do what I want when I want and not have to "rest" in the process.  That would be a nice fantasy.  The docs say in time I'll get my strength back but it takes time.  So I'll wait and hope but it doesn't stop that emotional roller coaster.