Why is this happening?

I'm devistated.  So not prepared for the loss of my eyebrows.  5 weeks after chemo is over and my brows are falling out like my hair did 5 months ago.  It's just the weirdest thing.  On Dec 12th I went to a class called Look good, feel better.  The lady specifically talked about penciling in eyebrows.  She told us to take a photo of what our brows looked like so when they fall out, we'll know the shape of them and how to pencil them in.  I thought to myself, no need to worry.  Mine are still with me.  I figured if I'd loose them it would certainly be while I was on Taxol.  But they're still here so no worries.  You'd think I would have gotten the clue when my eyelashes started to thin out.  I don't know why I didn't think my brows would go next.  I guess I didn't do enough research cause before you know it, one day I had my eyebrows the next they were majorly thinning out.  Now I just have a few strands left.  I thought it was hard to loose the hair on my head but let me tell you, wigs can hide a bald head.  Nothing can hide no eyebrows and I'm really having a tough time accepting that they are almost gone.  So, not only did I gain 15 pounds.  My face is fat, my stomach is big, I have barely any eyelashes and eysbrows and I'm super pale.  I seriously look sick.  What happened to me?  Oh, that's right, I had cancer.  The docs said it's gone so why do I look like crap?  And I have 6 weeks of radiation coming up.  Ok, I'm happy to be alive but it's so difficult to watch myself go through this transformation.  I've decided that it might be time to finally join a cancer support group.  I have the best support group a girl could ask for but I need one where women understand what I'm going through or who have been there and done that.  Cause right now, I think I need someone to tell me everything is going to be ok.