Worn out

I have 2 more chemo appointments and I'm at the point where I'm getting completely worn out.  You can tell in my face.  I've lost my color, I'm so pale.  I don't bother putting foundation or powder on.  My face is really dry and some makeup makes my face burn.   My eyelashes are pretty much gone so I don't wear mascara.  I've tried to wear it but it just doesn't look right.  And who wants to wear lipstick especially if that's the only makeup on.  It looks silly.  I feel like that vibrant young woman I once was is now an old haggard woman.  So sad.  But no matter how bad I looked, my little boy Cody only saw his mom.  So that kept me going.