Visit with my friends

Today my friend Mike, Martha, Megan and Matt came to visit us.  It was the first time they came to our new house.  We had a great time.  Martha and I met in Arizona back in 1997.  We became instant friends.  We use to hang out all the time together but now we live about 1 1/2 hours apart so seeing each other isn't as easy as it use to be.  But today that came to visit and we had a blast.  We went to the pool, had a cookout and Cody even got a smooch from Megan his 11 year old girlfriend for the day.  In her mind, there was no way.  But he was completely in ahh of her.  It was adorable.

A walk through memory lane

Today I went to a bike store with my co-worker at lunch.  Talk about a walk through memory lane.  Funny how life changes.  10 years ago I was single, childless, living in Phoenix and doing whatever I wanted whenever I wanted.  Life was good.  I had great friends that I cherish to this day and I enjoyed fun in the sun with my outdoorsy lifestyle.  We'd do a lot of things - hiking, biking, hang at the pool, races, camping.  The list goes on and on.  But today, when I went to the bike shop, it thew me back in time.  To a time when I purchased my 1st mountain bike and it just seemed like I was watching a movie of my life in my head.  The flashbacks of all the different trails, my mountain bike gear, gloves, helmet, biker shorts....it all came rushing in.  At times, I can't remember what I did yesterday or last week but 10 years ago just all came back with a blink of an eye.  And it felt so real.  My life is different now.  I still have my bike but I no longer mountain bike.  Instead I ride with my husband and son around our neighborhood.  7 years ago, I got married.  4 years ago, the best little boy came in to my life.  10 months ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer and my life and me have been forever changed.

Oh no, I have a twin

So Ken and I stopped by an ice cream shop on our way home.  We were standing in line when I noticed 2 women probably in their 50's who's hair was the exact same hair style as mine.  So I wonder.  Did they choose to have that hairstyle or are they growing it in like me?  Then I thought, for a milla-second I thought my hair wasn't so bad.  Sure it needs to be styled but geez I've only had hair for 5 months now, and I think it's only been 3 months now that I've actually gone out in public without my wig so I can't cut it yet although I really think it needs a style.  But looking at these ladies made me think I'm sporting an elderly look.  All I want is to look like my old self again.  In time, hopefully I will.

Reston Relay for life

Today I participated in the Reston Relay for Life.

1st day back to work full time

Today my office made me come back to work full time.  Almost 4 years ago to the day, I started working part time.  I had the best schedule.  Last year the office wanted me to come back but I got cancer so they backed off.  17 days after my radiation treatments were over, they approached me.  I turned in 2 doctors notes but they pretty much said since I wasn't disabled I had to come back.  I was upset and I thought about pursuing it further but then I thought let's see how I feel after working 2 weeks and we'll go from there.  Time will tell.

Emotional Roller Coaster

Today was an emotional day.  I was in such a good mood this morning.  It was bring your bike to work day at Cody's preschool.  He was so excited to bring his new bike to school and ride it.  Everyone in his class brought their bikes and parked them all in a designated area in the parking lot.  I was so happy to see him so excited.  I was energized myself.  Thinking, I'm going to get a lot done today.  It's chilly out so I have no outdoor distractions.  I can spend the entire day in the house organizing.  So I got home and put my plan in to effect and the kitchen was my first stop.  I started organizing the cabinets over the desk.  We got some new plastic outdoor plates and cups so that's where I wanted to put them.  The air conditioning guy showed up to inspect our air conditioning units.  Even though it's chilly out today, I know warm weather is on the way and soon here to stay.  Anyway, as time went by I started getting tired.  That's when my frustration began.  I hate being a slave to side effects.  I can have the best intentions and the fatigue sets in and ruins everything.  That's where the emotions start rolling in.  I just want to be normal.  I'm tired of my body telling me what to do.  I know the docs said to listen to my body but I have been for the last 9 months.  I just want a few days of freedom.  To do what I want when I want and not have to "rest" in the process.  That would be a nice fantasy.  The docs say in time I'll get my strength back but it takes time.  So I'll wait and hope but it doesn't stop that emotional roller coaster.